It wasn't until a few years ago when I sat down and drowned myself in questions.
And two words stayed tattooed to all of my answers: identity crisis.
My mother is filipino, my father Iranian and I was born in Australia.
Both my parents are bilingual and they had English as their common language.
But if that wasn't enough to confuse me I was caught in a religious-crisis too.
I'm Catholic and so is my mother but my father is Muslim.
And to top it off I am an identical twin.
I spent many of my years questioning who I was.
If I scrape all the layers out it must have all started when I was 16.
In primary and high school I spelt my name ‘‘Soraya'' until I found my birth certificate one day when I needed it for my learner's licence.
I looked at this sheet realising after all these years I was missing, ‘‘i.''
And for so long I identified myself as someone I wasn't.
I spoke to my dad one day and that also created another turning point in identifying myself through name.
He told me that my last name was supposed to be Gharahkhani-Khararudi (well, it was probably a good thing that one of those names got the axe!)
But the bottom question here was, who was Soraiya Gharahkhani-Khararudi?
She was a person I never knew existed but at the same time she was me.
And I know, it seems like a name you would have heard in the intro to Borat.
It also brings to mind a famous Shakespeare question, ‘‘What's in a name?''
When I really thought about it, I suppose I saw the positives that came out of this.
I have a shorter name (and an even shorter name when close friends call me Ghara) and it makes good party conversation.
I realised that all along I was looking at ‘‘what'' I was instead of ‘‘who'' I was.
But the most important positive was that I had finally found the ‘‘i'' in Soraiya.